Feels like brains of people working in government institutions function on a different wavelength or they simply live in a parallel reality. Road signs for road repair works are set up a week before the actual works even start and are removed not when the road works end, but some time after. WHY?

One state institution website is made in a way, that when I go there to find a list of certain companies (I know it is somewhere there, as the institution maintains it) there are dozens of links and files available. They all have info about the list, how you can be added to the list, when they remove you from the list, the application form… but NO list itself. WHY?

When developers make a state application or website, it usually screams 90ies. They were developed quite recently, but font style, layout, overall design gives the impression as if the app or website has been there for deeecades already and no updates have ever been made. WHY? Website for a state institution related to cybersecurity looks like it was made when I was in primary school istg. They are all super experts on IT and cybersecurity, but their website kinda makes me wonder are they really?

I prolonged (not sure though) one digital feature provided by state. In the state services website I received two messages – that the feature is active and then the latest message in my inbox is that the feature is annulled. SERIOUSLY? So is that feature active or not? I imagine that checking it will also involve me navigating through the darkest and most confusing paths of the state institution website.

I guess we both look at the same thing or process, but see it totally differently.

Yesterday (and some days before that) I received an orange level warning about expected strong thunderstorms with heavy rain, lightning and hail (the big, nasty one). But both times these predictions did not come true. Both times the sky was clear, sun was out lovingly warming me, birds chirping. A light breeze rustling in the leaves. And I wondered….. is there someone in the meteo place silently hoping the prediction comes true and prognosed thunderstorm goes wild with all the predicted effects. Because if not, people will think (and I certainly did) “ugh, those weather people again, just sowing panic and interrupting my day in vain”.

I do realize that predicting weather is an ungrateful business. Weather is capricious and where thunderstorm clouds will actually unload cannot be predicted with a hundred percent certainty. But, bro. Several such high-ish level warnings that come to nothing and no way I can genuinely keep my trust in the next warning to come.

As we know, taking care of our memory is a generally important thing to do. For me, it is a sign of crossing into the ‘mature’, the ‘aged’ territory. But here I am – not clicking that tempting ‘remember me’ button under login data, inserting my card in the card reader at the store hoping it will ask for my PIN, so I ‘exercise’ and confirm to myself I remember those important four digits. Once in a while recalling the one phone number I remember by heart nowadays. It feels like a necessary thing to do, but also adds a bit of a serene flavor, as it all just means the clock is ticking only forwards…

Soooo…. lately YouTube has gone totally wild with squeezing in ads what feels like every five minutes. And on the TV it is even worse! – the ad blocks are way bigger and time until I can skip that shit is so much longer than on my phone. I see what you are up to, YouTube, sweety. And no, I WILL NOT give in, darling. Throw those long-ass ads at me every five minutes in my calm workout video or some skills tutorial. I am NOT caving in.

Lately I have been attacked by a bunch load of ads whispering or singing to me how procrastination is not my fault, but a sign of some unresolved trauma or depression. Why did those ad makers think that playing some simple moving cartoon drawings while whispering this ominous message in the background would be the right way to push their service. Or worse, there are ads that are singing that “it’s not you, it’s trauma/depression/burnout” message to me like I am some toddler who is able to digest serious information only in the form of a simple song…

Looking at what social media is telling me, eeeeeevery little discomfort I am experiencing is a result or some unresolved trauma, depression or burnout. In my opinion, such approach is only devaluating the things people with actual diagnosed mental health issues go through.

And anyways, why are those people presuming I am a procrastinator in the first place…

Why is it, that dog food can ring pulls are the only ones I can use without breaking off my nails. Ring pulls on all the other cans, the human food cans, be it from a fancy producer or the budget line category, seem almost glued to the lid. I feel my nails ripping off even looking at them. Always need some support utensil to get to the food in human food cans. Never with dog food cans. Why so?

Had to fill a formal questionnaire a while ago. Gave me a huge throwback to uni times with all the 50 shades of spewing bullshit or pouring endless water in an endless well. How to say one thing in five different ways. How to make all those ways make you seem super smart and professional. While not letting them get even a hint that you are just winging it and making it up as you go. Oh, the memories…

Finally. FINALLY! this place is ready to roll. Shoutout to Google Gemini for support in making it. I am fairly sure it also thinks (kinda) that I am dense as fuck.
I also feel for developers – the frustrations I went through in the process of making this site definitely rid me of a bunch of nerve cells.